The drama and the pains of the last 3 years have been overwhelming at times. While most of my friends see the end, the tears, the heartache, and the struggles they miss out on the joys that made the pain possible. Too often when we're hurt by someone we forget that the reason that we hurt is because it was so good to begin with.
Have I given him many chances, of course. But, have I seen growth, improvement, and a better undertanding along the way - of course. Without these things I wouldn't have hope.
Some days I would love to be able to hate him and to know that there isn't a possibility of a future with us. Then there are other times that he still is the only person to come through for me at my time of need, he'll go above and beyond what is expected of him. Moments where I wonder where, and who, I would be if it wasn't for the man in my life.
I choose to love him, even though it can hurt. I choose that path because not loving him hurts me. Giving him another chance is a risk at having my heart broken, but not loving him is a guarantee that my heart will continue to be shattered on the ground.
I choose to love him, for all of the good times and the bad times. Through all of the pain and the tears, because without them we wouldn't be the people that we are today.
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